Riding on the Metro

You are everything you ever were. In a good way. Everytime you made a total stranger laugh for minutes on end is exactly how funny you are right now. Were your intentions always good and pure? Our level of self-consciousness varies from freedom to fear. With video recording, we can relive certain moments, yet feel differently about them now than we did then. Is hindsight 20/20? Is the photograph truth? If I was happy as hell, and my audience was happy as hell, why do I feel so bad about it now? Probably because I feel bad about everything now. It is the nature of the beast. I know the problems in my head are chemical, but the chemicals they are giving me are not doing the trick. I need efficacious medicine. She works so well.